Tuesday, January 17, 2006

... disappointed

i'm usually disappointed with myself, but at the moment i'm particularly disappointed. this is why.

my last post promised great things, thoughts, prepared agrument. there's nothing. life got so busy around the Christmas period, leading on a camp, visiting friends and relations (i sound like rabbit from pooh), i lost all the fire i had in my belly about all the stuff, the "race riots" (not quite l.a. but big for sydney) that happened.

it's making me think a bit about how i think about life. i don't think i think that much about it, to be honest. if it doesn't affect me immediately (not personally - anyone who knows me knows how much personal stuff i put off too...) then oftentimes i just don't worry about it.

case in point: i had a bunch of stuff i had to return to scripture union after a camp last year, and i only just got it in. i'm not happy about it. i'm pretty much ashamed of myself. but it's been a big mental kick in the pants, and i hope and pray that when it rolls around this year i'll have the chance to prove myself capable of doing the right thing this time.

i hope i will. pray for me. that'd be a big help! :)


archibald asparagus said...

I'll pray for you doc, "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."

Your sister said...

Sometimes you need to kick start your motor to get your car running. Don't worry, look at it in a positive light, think about what you can learn from the situation. No one's asking you to be the worlds spokesperson or leader, people are just interested in hearing your opinions... thats it. Don't be so hard on yourself, after all, you're only human. And even the best of us stuff it up.