i was reading in my journal this morning and saw an entry for almost a year ago, at a time when i was feeling rather sorry for myself.
Thank you God that you love me so much; that if I ever doubt it, I can read your Word, and pray, and spend time with my brothers and sisters; that my doubts do not change how much you love me.
Thank you God that you have surrounded me with people who care; near and far, despite my best efforts and worst behaviour, they continue loving and prayerful, more or less; that by their example and in their love you show me glimpses of heaven.
Forgive me Lord for all my sins; for where I do wrong, for where I do not do right, and for my nature to continue to do so; for continuing to live of the world and not merely in the world.
Lord, do not give me over to my sin as I deserve, but restore me according to your promise; increase my faith, and help my unbelief; lift my eyes to heaven, and save me from myself.